We had a wonderful time this morning hosting breakfast for the family clan, and celebrated three birthdays over a brunch feast. Getting ready for company last night after working all week was a bit of a challenge. Against better judgment, I ended up staying up after midnight putting the finishing touches on my house. I really like to make sure guests in my home feel comfortable, and for me that means making sure things are orderly and clean.
Where’s the balance? I’m really not sure, but I keep trying to find it. I must admit, last night was not balance! At midnight I got the fruit tray ready, washing the grapes, strawberries and pineapple chunks, and set the rinsed bananas out for the morning, leaving just enough room on my fruit platter to pile up some halved bananas. By the time I was sure everything was “done, it was a couple of hours after midnight. ”
After I finally found myself in bed in the dark, I realized I had stayed up late enough that peripheral neuropathy leg pain rapidly kicked into full gear. Although I tried to fall asleep, it just wasn’t happening!
After laying awake the dark, I became annoyed as our little dog at the end of the bed kept sitting on my painful legs, shifting around and making continual noises. Most nights we let him lay quietly on his blanket on the end of the bed. while we watch some TV and occasionally nibble on popcorn. He usually attempts to be a good little dog, but is often beside himself with exuberance until we break down and toss him a piece of popcorn. If he is quiet and we fall asleep, once in a while he gets the prize of sleeping on our bed all night.
However, after his prolonged and irritating antics during my slumber-less night, it wasn’t long before I ushered him swiftly to his kennel and crawled back in bed to try again. Maybe I could blame the problem on the dog!
I picked up my Nook Tablet from the bedside table and found its “white noise” application. After sampling several noises of birds, wind and waves, I settled on surf rhythmically crashing into some unknown shore. It was soothing, and if not for the neuropathy pain, I would have probably slipped away into pleasant slumber, dreaming of driftwood on the make-believe surf. In the long darkness, the white noise timer shut down an hour later, but still I was sleepless and enduring painful surges of persistent neuropathy pain.
Wary that taking strong medication for my pain would make waking up in time for 8:00 a.m. company difficult, I finally got out of bed a second time looking for an alternate solution. A microwaved quick latte made with decaf tea, warm milk and honey actually helped increase my wish to sleep, but the neuropathy still was relentless. As a last resort, I went out to my leather chair and reclined with my Nook in my lap playing white noise sounds, this time of a calming rain shower. I finished my soothing latte and decided to sit out the night in my chair, since it was the most comfortable and close to sleep I had been in two hours.
At last, sleep overtook me and brought three hours of precious sleep. My husband found me asleep in the living room at 5:30 a.m. and woke me gently. He encouraged me to finish slumbering back in the comfort of bed. Now I was finally sleepy enough to catch a few more serious winks on my pillow. Morning came much too early for my tired lupus-challenged brain, but at least, I had enough sleep to thoroughly enjoy our early morning family gathering.
As for tonight, no midnight housework or cooking. Instead, for me it is “early to bed” after such an “early to rise” morning!